got a huge list of things to do today and I'm ticking them off as I go along, feel quite good at the minute and just need to get on with the most important things in my life. Some people seem to forget their priorities. They find happiness in something and get totally lost in the moment, it results in lack in care for other things, and in the worse cases failure. You shouldn't get caught up in one thing. Your life should be a balance of what you want to do and what you need to do, for others and yourself. In the end all of those little things will come together and you'll realise that you are happier than you were with the one thing you gave everything up for, but you need to realise it before it's too late. 

Education (if you're in it of course) should always be a priority. Especially now, sixth form and uni, because we choose to be there, no one is making us do this. Don't stop trying, or forget that you need to try, because in the end you will fuck yourself over so much. You might not be happy doing what you're doing, but you chose it, so complete it. 

You're so content that even when you actually do step out of your happiness zone, to do one of the things you have given up on, you do it half heartedly and it's very unfair. 

...so that's that. No one will really understand the stem of this, except me and maybe my boyfriend because I talk to him about it. But it will still make sense. It's really important to me and I'm so glad I've been made aware of this without having done it myself. I've seen it too many times and I'm seeing it again now. It's one of the worst mistakes a young person can make.

Anyway I gunna carry on with the things I need to do today, including

English coursework

Media coursework

Other English coursework

Go to the gym

Do some research for french

paint my nails (lame but w.e white gurl probs)

Hoover my room

Sort some things out for Paris - I go next sunday

Find my memory stick. why don't I just put it in a safe place

Drinking kusmi detox tea to help me get through it and eating fruit salad.  Eating healthily makes everything better and a lot easier. I sleep better think better and over all feel better. I haven't eaten unhealthy since christmas day. It wasn't a new years resolution or anything, just a decision. Oh to finish: My tie dye t shirt that I ordered before christmas arrived this week. Late delivery. But i don't even care cause it's soooo nice. Ok, that's it now. Need to work again. xxx