Making a post when I should be speaking French non stop, as my oral exam is upon me in the mere distance that is the elevenses of Wednesday. I am absolutely dreading it. I am just comforting myself with the thought of how quickly those deathly 15 minutes will time out.
I went shopping on Friday for the first time with my mam and in was really nice, I got so many things and didn't feel guilty about having things bought for me. Firstly, if you ever shop in the metro centre please go in Boux Avenue. When it first opened (next to la senza and Ann summers....) I was apprehensive as to why it was needed however it is the cutest shop ever. All of the underwear is placed in little draws which you get to open and search yourself, the staff service is excellent too and they have the nicest stock, it's not too pricey either. I also got some new perfume, some new jeans and a new dress and a pair of the nude Vectras. Oh and a hair band.

Wearing the benefit mascara, if you knew how shit my lashes usually look, you would understand.

I am going out tonight in Newcastle with my best friend Laura and maybe a couple of others, I plan to remain civilised as last time I went out I got stupidly drunk and ended up throwing up in the middle of the o2 academy. yep. I am really excited and I am going to wear just a plain zip up black body con I got a while ago from H&M with a black and white stripy blazer.
Also, lastly, I just want to say I know own the most amazing mascara. Benfit's 'They're Real'. I have crappy short thin eyelashes and I hate mascaras that just clump and make you look like you fall hand in hand with a pair or concealer lips. So after reading about this on skullsandrosesxo blog I went out and purchased it, and oh my god. Thank you is all I have to say.

I need to go and revise how to talk about racism in France. But the Big Bang Theory is on :(

xox

My blog is so deserted. I have no time for doing nice pointless little things, that you don't realise you enjoy doing until you aren't able to. I'm counting down the weeks that I have to endure the hello hole whirlwind that is sixth form. 5 weeks until study leave. 7 weeks two days until my last exam.
I have never liked sixth form, not because of the stress and hard work, because that obviously comes with any sort of study, no matter where you do it. But I just don't fit in there, so luckily I have little time left
Everything for university is sorted and I am kind of just looking over it and not thinking about it. There is still about 50% of me that doesn't even really want to go to university but I would feel like I was letting people down if I didn't. I also have no clue what I'd do if I didn't go, I suppose I would just have to find myself a full time job for a couple of years in order to make up some savings before we move to Paris.
I just need to stop over thinking.
My French oral exam is next week and I am dreading it, we haven't even completed the course so you can imagine my fear. On a better note I can now talk about the environment, nuclear energy, racism, immigration and crime in french.....yey.....I bet that comes in handy.
I don't think I have any particular photographs to post, so here are some things that are making me happy at the moment.

Soap and Glory lipstick. What more could you even want. I love all soap and glory products and live by the 'Scrub your nose in it cleanser'. I recommend this lipstick, the packaging is lovely and the lipstick is really creamy and pigmented, it doesn't dry my lips out like a lot of lipsticks do (especially MAC, which also look like little dildos) 

When I'm revising (which obviously I am doing a great deal of at the moment) I like to just run dvds in the background so I have gotten out my friends box set. The clothes they wear in the early series are amazing. Lots of graphic prints, vintage denim and crop tops.

Me and Daniel watched this recently and I really enjoyed it. Again the fashion is wonderful and it only makes me want to live in a different time. It's based on the mod vs rocker situation, the cinematography is fantastic and it keeps you gripped. The girl is a bit of an annoying berk, but wars lovely red lip stick.

A bag organiser. What more do I even need to say.

Dan let me buy sims pets to play on his xbox which is great and I appreciate a lot

Me and lau to finish the post 

xxx

Today was nice
I don't know why, it just felt nice
I feel happy. Although my mam bought me a new quilt and I don't like it because it feels like plastic and I feel like im sleeping in a packet of crisps :(
My shorts that I ordered came today and they are lush so yeah there's that. I can't think of anything else to say
I keep having proper crazy dreams, so clear and nice, they are just like real life. I love real life. I love reality. I really hate it when I see people say ''I wish life was like the movies'' or ''why isn't life like a Disney film''. Why would you want that, why would you only want to experience controlled emotion, and be content for such a long period of time. In real life you can never truly find a happy ending because no matter how happy you think you are there is something that can make your life better. Why would you want a cut off point, a point which defines your life. Fate is the best part of life, although it defies my original opinion in a sense, I mean it like, you aren't in control everything is still a surprise and that just makes everything better


It's too late to explain my thoughts with good reason and actually make sense
Nevermind

Almost finished my research paper now, it has to be handed in tomorrow. It's just first draft though and I know I am going to have to make a lot of improvements. It's really hard and it's making me sad :(
I really want a good mark on it, a high A is what I really want. I got an A* with full marks on my practical piece (the magazine which I posted a while ago while I had only done half of it)
Here it is finished (obviously it looks a lot better printed on A4 glossy paper, but you get it.)

I am so happy with how it came out.

I am really tired now crey
just wanna go sleep. 

Okay I have done both of my english coursework pieces, painted my nails, hoovered, and done 1600/2000 words for my media coursework.
Having a break at the moment because my brain is like overloading. I'm looking on Sephoras website at things I want to buy next week in Paris. I know you can buy online/ buy most of the stuff here, but it's nicer when you buy it there. I want some more benefit things and some of the little sephora nail varnishes. I would like a Mac blusher too. I think this is the main stuff I'm going to buy when I'm there, I might buy some little things, 'gifty things' but I don't need much else, no clothes or anything cause I was there not so long ago. I just like being there and walking around the city. 
Why is buying makeup so nice, you always feel like a new person when you get something new. When I buy a new lipstick I honestly feel like I have a changed life and feel the need to become a better person....what is that about. 
These are the things I want, and I'll probably end up buying more.
1.Maniac Long Wearing Lipstick 
2.Moonshadow Baked Palette - In The Nude
3.Calm One Calm All® Bubble Bath
4.Prisma Chrome Eyeshadow
5.Nail Lacquer in - Teenybikini

got a huge list of things to do today and I'm ticking them off as I go along, feel quite good at the minute and just need to get on with the most important things in my life. Some people seem to forget their priorities. They find happiness in something and get totally lost in the moment, it results in lack in care for other things, and in the worse cases failure. You shouldn't get caught up in one thing. Your life should be a balance of what you want to do and what you need to do, for others and yourself. In the end all of those little things will come together and you'll realise that you are happier than you were with the one thing you gave everything up for, but you need to realise it before it's too late. 

Education (if you're in it of course) should always be a priority. Especially now, sixth form and uni, because we choose to be there, no one is making us do this. Don't stop trying, or forget that you need to try, because in the end you will fuck yourself over so much. You might not be happy doing what you're doing, but you chose it, so complete it. 

You're so content that even when you actually do step out of your happiness zone, to do one of the things you have given up on, you do it half heartedly and it's very unfair. 

...so that's that. No one will really understand the stem of this, except me and maybe my boyfriend because I talk to him about it. But it will still make sense. It's really important to me and I'm so glad I've been made aware of this without having done it myself. I've seen it too many times and I'm seeing it again now. It's one of the worst mistakes a young person can make.

Anyway I gunna carry on with the things I need to do today, including

English coursework

Media coursework

Other English coursework

Go to the gym

Do some research for french

paint my nails (lame but w.e white gurl probs)

Hoover my room

Sort some things out for Paris - I go next sunday

Find my memory stick. why don't I just put it in a safe place

Drinking kusmi detox tea to help me get through it and eating fruit salad.  Eating healthily makes everything better and a lot easier. I sleep better think better and over all feel better. I haven't eaten unhealthy since christmas day. It wasn't a new years resolution or anything, just a decision. Oh to finish: My tie dye t shirt that I ordered before christmas arrived this week. Late delivery. But i don't even care cause it's soooo nice. Ok, that's it now. Need to work again. xxx

Haven't posted in such a long time. Committed blogger. 
I just never have time, in fact, I never have time for anything. Everything is so hard. Why do I have to learn about immigration and nuclear energy in french, why do I need to write a research paper for media, and why the fuck did I even take english language. 
On a better note two weeks today I will be in Paris again with Laura, for three days.We booked up so cheaply and then realised we are there on valentines day hehe.  Then I found out in June I'm going to Paris again with my French class.
I just keep thinking about university to get me through all of this year. And push myself because I know it will pay off. I've had an offer from Leeds Met, Sheffield and Manchester, just waiting to hear from Nottingham now. I wish they would hurry up though, because Leeds Met accommodation opens in two days, and I can't apply for it until I accept them as my firm choice. I'll end up living in a shit apartment with a crab man.
Everything else is nice. Me and Daniel made dreamcatchers and they turned out like surprisingly well. Urm so yeah, that's all, here is my dream catcher, and other things that are currently making me feel happy.