Today was nice
I don't know why, it just felt nice
I feel happy. Although my mam bought me a new quilt and I don't like it because it feels like plastic and I feel like im sleeping in a packet of crisps :(
My shorts that I ordered came today and they are lush so yeah there's that. I can't think of anything else to say
I keep having proper crazy dreams, so clear and nice, they are just like real life. I love real life. I love reality. I really hate it when I see people say ''I wish life was like the movies'' or ''why isn't life like a Disney film''. Why would you want that, why would you only want to experience controlled emotion, and be content for such a long period of time. In real life you can never truly find a happy ending because no matter how happy you think you are there is something that can make your life better. Why would you want a cut off point, a point which defines your life. Fate is the best part of life, although it defies my original opinion in a sense, I mean it like, you aren't in control everything is still a surprise and that just makes everything better


It's too late to explain my thoughts with good reason and actually make sense
Nevermind

Almost finished my research paper now, it has to be handed in tomorrow. It's just first draft though and I know I am going to have to make a lot of improvements. It's really hard and it's making me sad :(
I really want a good mark on it, a high A is what I really want. I got an A* with full marks on my practical piece (the magazine which I posted a while ago while I had only done half of it)
Here it is finished (obviously it looks a lot better printed on A4 glossy paper, but you get it.)

I am so happy with how it came out.

I am really tired now crey
just wanna go sleep. 

Okay I have done both of my english coursework pieces, painted my nails, hoovered, and done 1600/2000 words for my media coursework.
Having a break at the moment because my brain is like overloading. I'm looking on Sephoras website at things I want to buy next week in Paris. I know you can buy online/ buy most of the stuff here, but it's nicer when you buy it there. I want some more benefit things and some of the little sephora nail varnishes. I would like a Mac blusher too. I think this is the main stuff I'm going to buy when I'm there, I might buy some little things, 'gifty things' but I don't need much else, no clothes or anything cause I was there not so long ago. I just like being there and walking around the city. 
Why is buying makeup so nice, you always feel like a new person when you get something new. When I buy a new lipstick I honestly feel like I have a changed life and feel the need to become a better person....what is that about. 
These are the things I want, and I'll probably end up buying more.
1.Maniac Long Wearing Lipstick 
2.Moonshadow Baked Palette - In The Nude
3.Calm One Calm All® Bubble Bath
4.Prisma Chrome Eyeshadow
5.Nail Lacquer in - Teenybikini

got a huge list of things to do today and I'm ticking them off as I go along, feel quite good at the minute and just need to get on with the most important things in my life. Some people seem to forget their priorities. They find happiness in something and get totally lost in the moment, it results in lack in care for other things, and in the worse cases failure. You shouldn't get caught up in one thing. Your life should be a balance of what you want to do and what you need to do, for others and yourself. In the end all of those little things will come together and you'll realise that you are happier than you were with the one thing you gave everything up for, but you need to realise it before it's too late. 

Education (if you're in it of course) should always be a priority. Especially now, sixth form and uni, because we choose to be there, no one is making us do this. Don't stop trying, or forget that you need to try, because in the end you will fuck yourself over so much. You might not be happy doing what you're doing, but you chose it, so complete it. 

You're so content that even when you actually do step out of your happiness zone, to do one of the things you have given up on, you do it half heartedly and it's very unfair. 

...so that's that. No one will really understand the stem of this, except me and maybe my boyfriend because I talk to him about it. But it will still make sense. It's really important to me and I'm so glad I've been made aware of this without having done it myself. I've seen it too many times and I'm seeing it again now. It's one of the worst mistakes a young person can make.

Anyway I gunna carry on with the things I need to do today, including

English coursework

Media coursework

Other English coursework

Go to the gym

Do some research for french

paint my nails (lame but w.e white gurl probs)

Hoover my room

Sort some things out for Paris - I go next sunday

Find my memory stick. why don't I just put it in a safe place

Drinking kusmi detox tea to help me get through it and eating fruit salad.  Eating healthily makes everything better and a lot easier. I sleep better think better and over all feel better. I haven't eaten unhealthy since christmas day. It wasn't a new years resolution or anything, just a decision. Oh to finish: My tie dye t shirt that I ordered before christmas arrived this week. Late delivery. But i don't even care cause it's soooo nice. Ok, that's it now. Need to work again. xxx